Early January, I took travis in for a rash with no fever. I had googled it, found that the only thing it seemed it could be was called "fifth disease." It presents as sort of a cold, followed by a rash. That rash is the only real way to know what you've got. Most of us have gotten it as children. And once that rash presents, we are no longer contagious. And while it's mostly a non issue, it can be dangerous for pregnant women, for the babies. Unless you've had it before. As soon as i read that, i knew..i KNEW that i hadn't ever had it. We already had an appt scheduled and i told her about travis and the fifths. She drew some blood and a day later, she told me i was positive for the virus. What they meant was that we would have "serial" ultrasounds again to monitor EHM (elizabeth hope) for up to 8-12 weeks. I went in the following week, and all looked beautiful. Dr. said most likely if it was going to be a problem, we would have already seen it but to have one just u/s as a precaution. In the days leading up to the first u/s, i had these fleeting thoughts of "Lord, did i not learn the lessons you wanted me to get with Cana? Was i not faithful enough? Did i not learn how to wait on you, Lord?' I felt that i had failed in His mission to me. But then i thought, maybe you are asking me to remain faithful to show others your faithfulness to us yet again.... (and then i laughed and said "isn't that arrogant?") but..my hearts desire IS to be used as an instrument of His peace, mercy, joy in suffering, and redemption in Christ. So...bring it on.
Our last u/s (to watch for the fifths) was yesterday. She's measuring perfectly in line with our NFP calendar conception date (Natural Family Planning) and she's active, smaller than travis (YES! no almost 9 pounder this time) and just...gosh, she's just perfect.