Thursday, August 27, 2009

May again?

I want to start this entry by sharing that i have learned and healed so much with the help and prayers and new friendships of those blogs listed to the right. Many of them are mommies of loss and/or mommies of trisomy 18 babies. It was by the unknown encouragement of some friends who took me into their play date group of boys all around the same age, and the fun they seemed to have with their blogs that got me on here, and then God took it to a whole other level when i was able to connect and share with moms and families who knew the grief journey too well. I have been reminded of the community of faith, that i am not alone, and that we are all in this together, no matter if we never meet on this earth. You have all helped me to "build my muscles", "rehab" this heart that is learning to beat again, and "doggie paddled" along side me as we swim back to shore. I preface this entry because before this week, even when a mommy of loss announced she was pregnant, i struggled. I WANTED so desperately to just celebrate. i felt SO behind.

Today, it is with great joy and a TINY bit of "what if" that i share with you all that we are expecting again! We are very early on (may-ish) but if Cana has taught us anything, it's that Life is to be celebrated from day 1. I will not live this pregnancy in fear...i will treasure the gift that God has again worked His miracle, allows US..a taste of glory as He shows me how to lay down my life so another may live. I feel grateful that we have been able to conceive 3 babies..with no trouble with infertility..i don't want this to be "in your face" for those who do struggle with infertility, longing for more babies. I just want those mommies to know that this heart knows how blessed we are.

I know that it's early..and believe me...we know anything can happen. But we also have shown ourselves that we can trust. And no matter what, i'm a mom of 3 now.

thank you for celebrating with us. Please pray for us as we journey down this new path.

I will still be posting the last of Cana's days with us. Her grave marker will be in soon. I can't wait.

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6 comments:

  1. Trisha LarsonAugust 27, 2009 at 2:16 PM

    That's really wonderful news. I had a feeling that many of my "blog" friends would soon be announcing another baby...and I was right. I've had 2 just this week!

    I hope and pray that I can join you someday.

    Congratulations!

    Trisha

    Trisha

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  2. HollyAugust 27, 2009 at 5:41 PM

    Congratulations!!! I am always happy to hear of my fellow loss moms celebrating a new life. I sure hope that I can join ya'll soon! God knows when the time is right. I pray that your pregnancy be happy and healthy and full of joy!! Cana will make a great big sister. :)

    I feel so blessed to have met so many wonderful moms thru blogging. It has helped me so much!! I am thankful for you all!

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  3. RebeccaAugust 27, 2009 at 6:43 PM

    Wow. What an amazing blessing. I can understand not wanting to be pregnant 'in fear'. I will pray for Him to calm your heart, for you to cherish this new life each and every day, and that you would continue to trust the One who holds you in the palm of His hand.

    Celebrating with you!

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  4. BrendaAugust 27, 2009 at 8:38 PM

    Ah ha....found you!!! Thank you for visiting Brianna's site and for the many thoughts and prayers. I am so happy that you are expecting again...God is so good. Can I place a link to your site on Bri's site? Let me know. Brenda Botts

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  5. chadandnikkiAugust 28, 2009 at 6:25 AM

    Congrats!!!!!! That is awesome. I'm obviously praying for you and your husband. I'm hoping and praying that God gives you peace and comfort, and that you can enjoy this pregnancy. I'm so excited for you.

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  6. JamieAugust 29, 2009 at 12:56 PM

    Amen and amen! You are so right! What a treasure the little life in you is, even now. Rejoicing with you, amiga!

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