Before I try to post my promised (and i'm sure much anticipated) :)Oct. 9th - Cana's Resurrection Day retelling....i just wanted to let you know
I'm doing...better. I am still offering up my sad moments in faith and for Cana's little bro/sis in my tummy. And for all unborn babies..and especially all moms with fatal diagnosis pregnancies.
But today, i share that today is PRO-LIFE sunday in my faith and Oct. is Respect Life month. I LOVE that my Cana was born in October. I love that i have my entire faith community listening to homilies and gospel readings on how we recognize life IS life from conception to natural death. For us, that gap was too close for comfort. The conception to natural death for Cana was less than 10 months. It was just 37 weeks. But what an amazing 37 weeks. It was hard not to think just all about her today. And as I stood outside for just an hour at 230 this afternoon with about (wow, i'm terrible at judging crowds...and distances, just an fyi)...i'd say about 75?...well, as we stood and heard mostly honks of encouragement and just a couple reminders of the enemy, i would say i felt overjoyed to stand there, knowing what i know today..knowing i gave her every chance to live. That she gives me my purpose to live every pregnancy just the same way. Knowing I wouldn't trade her Heaven for my missing...Knowing my merciful Lord and His hand in my life. and on my heart. and in my sorrow.
We are hoping to celebrate both her earthly birthday and her resurrection day differently. We are hoping to create memories that will bring us joy..as we watch travis enJOY his little sister's first birthdays.
enduring the cross. embracing it as best i can today. And i remember always...suffering + obedience = glory.