You are my sunshine

Yesterday afternoon, i was finishing up travis' bathtime fun and he had left this easter card one of our adopted mom's had given him in the bathroom. One of those cards that you open up and it sings to you...
So it sang "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy....when skies are gray.  You'll never know dear, how much i love you......"  And i just LOST IT.  I tried to sing it to him, but then he started singing it to me.  I think I sat there with him while he opened it and closed it over 20 times, just learning the song and singing it back to me, while i tried thru garbled throat and tears streaming, to join in.  Elizabeth poked her head in to see if I needed her help getting him dressed and she saw me crying and laughing as travis was holding this card. I'm sure it was a strange sight for her.  :)  but I told her i was ok, and i was.  I was just so overtaken by this emotion of praise...that God let us have this little baby boy to come home to after we lost our Cana.  That during those gray sky days, he really was our only sunshine.  And now that we are about to become 5-1, and travis is going to get to love on that baby sister he's only heard about, i just reflect over the last 18 + months and my heart is overflowing with gratitude for this little life that brought us a little sunshine in our darkest days.

You'll never know, dear, how much I love you.....

 

Thank you Lord for this beautiful life, full of sorrow, full of joy.  I'll gladly take both.  Because without the sorrow, it might be harder to recognize the joy.  and the promise of Hope.